Thursday, January 12, 2006

End is Near, but Memories Unfold

Well, it has been a few days shy of a month since I have had to worry about homework, and it seems like it will be a little while longer until I see that day. The joys of having a relaxing last semester of my college career. Now this is not totally knocking out the possibility of post-undergrad institutions, but for at least now I will choose to steer clear of them. Since I now have all of this free time, I have the proper amount of time to wallow in my sorrows and crippling fear of post-graduation world.

Morningside will always be a place of High Schoolers that finally learn how to grow-up. It is really not the students or faculty's fault, it is a difference of the intentions and reality that the institution provides. But this is something that I have been able to look past. It is not my fault that some people need some time to grow, in fact it took myself a while to do that. Without this place, I don't think I would be where I am today (to this date I am debating whether this is a good thing or a bad thing). There are things that I will miss from this place, and like all times I will have regrets for the actions that I happened to put into motion or failed to do so. If this was my real journal I would write them down, but that is a little personal for a blog that is for all to see. Instead I will write them down and square it away with all of the other things that I push away and occasionally bring out for nostalgic reasons.

Speaking of taking out bits and pieces of the past out, I did just that this past Christmas break. The pack rat in my has allowed for a multitude of boxes to build up in the small area that I call my room at my parent's house. I was parusing through one of them and stumbled on a box that I had recently packed away after my freshman year of college. Dear God, is it bad that I referenced recent and freshman year? Nevermind. But after pulling out this box and fumbling through the contents, I stumbled upon a football program from that year. There were a whole slue of name that I barely remember, but faces and instances that I will never forget. I feel cheesy talking about freshman football that way, but it really was like a line from Goodfellas "it was when I met the world". Which is true for the most part, but for now that is it for the trip down memory lane.


Anonymous Victoria said...

Nice cover on the whole "recent" and "freshman" correlation... you know I would have picked up on it.

I'm glad to hear that you're taking a "trip down memory lane." I think it's really good to remind ourselves of where we came from and how we have been shaped by things. Especially with you getting ready to graduate, it adds a nice feeling of closure (cheesy-sounding I know, but fully necessary in this instance).

I don't blame you for not wanting to share all of your regrets through your public blog (although, the fact that you are keeping them a secret makes me want to know them more... oh well).

I wish you luck in your oh-so-tough final semester at Morningside High.

Thanks for the comment on my blog. I guess by now you know me well enough that I get guilted into doing things easily-- good move.

1/15/2006 6:04 PM  

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